To the tender-hearted; those who hurt deep for the broken , and to the mamas and dads who would move mountains for your children, and for the plain-old stubborn "fixers"....this is for you ( and me, REALLY me)

 

I sit here with a screw driver, a broken toy and my typical determination.  I will fix this.

The kids got gift cards for Christmas.  I took them shopping this past Saturday to spend them.  Rylie wanted a giant stuffed dog, but instead I talked her into a small remote-controlled princess carriage/boat.  The boat made one excursion in the bathtub before it ceased its moving.  Jason and I worked Sunday to get it going again.  We turned it off and on at least twelve times and checked the batteries. It was when Jason shook the small toy that he could hear that the inner parts of the toy were somehow disconnected.

Being the persistent girl that I am, I started in again this morning.  With screw driver in hand, I proceeded to take the tiny boat apart.  If I could get inside, surely I could connect the parts that had somehow become disassembled.  No such luck. The toy was built so that it couldn't be taken apart.  The toy sits in front of me as a symbol of frustration and disappointment.

  I want to fix it.

I will work until I fix it.

I won't rest until I fix it.

I will hurt until its fixed.

This is my approach to broken things and broken loved-ones.  

I haven't fixed the toy boat and yet this time, I've allowed it to remain in my sight unfixed.  In the stillness I hear a whisper......  You can't fix everything

Sometimes you're just not strong enough

My brokenness isn't about just me and you

You CAN'T fix me just right-there's something broken in a deep place that you can't reach

and by trying, you become worn out and defeated often forgetting THE fixer, the healer

Put down your tools.  Cease your working.  Rest in Him who heals.  Trust that He is at work in the broken, including you.

...not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord of hosts

 Zechariah 4:6

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us,.... to Him be the glory

 Ephesians 3:20, 21b

All that is broken belongs to Jesus