Sweating is gross. I don't do that.
-Words from Rylie when getting the kids from school Wednesday
. I wish it were that simple. If only I could banish certain experiences and attitudes by deciding they were gross or undesirable. I love her thinking.
Some things are just going to happen. I'm going to sweat. I'm going to have my occasional fails with my supper experiments. I'm going to have bad hair days and the sinus infections will come and go. No amount of determination and experience will rid me of these parts of life; I guess I can live with that.
Then there are those things I do-I choose to do, that I just can't seem to stop; that's a different story. For instance, I choose to be grumpy. Being sarcastic with my kids and Jason is a choice, I don't have to do that. Watching unwholesome movies and shows on TV is a conscious decision, unlike sweating. With each of these undesired behaviors I know, if not before, right when I'm doing it, that I shouldn't be doing it. Why can't I stop? Why do I even start? I'm encouraged that Paul had the same problem. Listen to him in Romans 7>
18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.
25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
We MUST come to a place daily, where we recognize that there is no good in us apart from God. Try as we may, we are a resevoir and conduit of sin. When we continue to try and free ourself from the clutches of sin we find our effort fruitless and frustrated. The- "If at first you don't succeed -try, try again" mentality is like banging your head against a brick wall (nothing is accomplished and you're left feeling damaged).
I think the problem may be that we focus too much on what WE can and can't do on our own effort.
We have a sinful nature, and we're going to, for the remainder of our time on this side of eternity. Our hope, and any good that we can do comes only from Jesus. His death on the cross was enough. He said "it is finished". He meant it. It's obviously good to try and refrain from wrongdoing. There is merit in trying to do good. But REMEMBER, trying to do good apart from a relationship with God is in vain.
Our effort must dissolve into a passion to know Christ more fully. His grace covers our failures. His goodness flows through our veins.
If we make Him our true focus, we have nothing to sweat.